Showing posts with label heaven. Show all posts
Showing posts with label heaven. Show all posts

Friday, June 5, 2009

1st Ultrasound - The Results

It went wonderfully!

Of course, I was terrified, but it didn't take long before the tech found our healthy baby and let us hear the heartbeat! Baby measured exactly 7w,3d and had a healthy heartbeat of 152!

We were a bit suspicious at the time because she switched to a tummy u/s... as she said, "To be sure." Sure of what, we didn't know.

Later, while I was waiting for the exam, the doctor walked in and said, "Well, you know it was a twin pregnancy, but the other already stopped developing." HUH!!?! He went on to explain that the second sac was empty, like a blighted ovum. It will disappear as baby #1 continues to develop.

In retrospect, we both suspected something might be wrong, but when I heard that beautiful heartbeat it all washed away. At one point during the transvaginal u/s it looked like there may be an empty sac (after my last miscarriage, we're very aware of what that looks like) but I told myself it was probably just a 'bad view' of the same sac, since the baby was less than 1/2" at that point. When she did the tummy u/s, we could see the empty sac much clearer but still, she didn't say anything at the time. Only, "congratulations" for our baby.

Its sad to think we've lost a twin, but I choose to believe our baby has a guardian angel. One day, that is what we'll tell him/her.

Our Angel, Samuel 4/30/08 ~ 7/17/08


Gone too Soon, Our Angel Zipporah 1/2009


Our Baby's Twin Angel, Malachi 4/14/09 - 6/3/2009

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Samuel, 4/30/08 ~ 7/17/08

Thinking of my miscarriage, I wanted to chronicle some of the things I've written in honor of our angel.

January 21, 2009
This week, we thought we'd be welcoming you into the world. Instead, we sit here with empty arms, fulfilled hearts and open minds.
I'll always yearn to know you; to love you in person. Instead, I must be content to love you from afar and meet you in heaven. Our love for you will only grow stronger with each passing moment, and our happiest day will be meeting you in heaven.
In my heart, I believe you're a boy, but in my mind I know you're simply and purely one of God's most beautiful angels.

Mommy & Daddy will love and cherish you forever. Our sweet, sweet baby, we love you more than words can say.